nilay nilay
sa ibang nakakakilala sakin marahil ang tingin e napaka babang babae ko,(di ba anne, ja, aubs,deck,tin,jacob,mat,drei,step, nel at sa iba na nakakaalam ng storya ko ngayon sa buhay)...well thats true..gusto ko ibalik ung dating ako.. i just want to be simple and all. gusto ko ung simple at mapagmahal na ako.. i think i have to break this very strong shield na nakabalot sa aking mga mata lalo na sa isipan ko..i want to meet someone again..na mas better na someone i could look up to..someone na good influence that could bring me back..the old angelica that my little sister is talkin about..i want to bring her again.
i just want to feel better again..i want to bring back the real me..if people ask if im ok or wat.. well probably my answer would be yes im good.. but deep inside my inner self.. i dont think so.. im ragged and covered with molds..how could i ever be back again ... my little sister is right.. im not me unlike before..that phrase really kept me thinkin because i cant believe my sister would say that to me.. na she said di naman daw ako ganito dati..it really confuses me.. na i asked her na anu ba ako dati na hindi ngyon.. and you wont believe kung ano ung mga sinabi nya that really shocked me..tama sya.. ang laki nga tlaga ng difference at grabe ung mga changes na iyon..i ask myself ganito ba tlga ung mga nagbago sa akin..well i think di ko na mababago ang mga nangyari at di ko maibabalik ung mga nawala sa akin..sobrang stupida ko at tanga.. but meron kayang isang tao na matatanggap pa ang aking pinagdadaanan ngayon..na kaya akong tanggapin kung ano nangyari sa akin...siguro masasabi ko na lng.. it just happen and i dont regret at all .. part din kasi ako ng mga nangyari.. natatakot na ako sa naging ako.. sa naging ako with this past few years.. well probably i think im really miserable when i became 19 up to now...di ko na talaga maisip.. i need counseling..
Black sheep.. oo fine black sheep na ako ng family nmin.. i really admit it.. before they've been proud of me way back hanggang mag 1st year college ako but nagsimula na lahat ng mga pangarap ko ay mabuwag.. how could i mend all of this.. my parents dont have trust on me anymore.. really scary.. seeing myself today really frighten me..how how
kung mababalik ko lamang ang lahat..can someone say to me what am i way back..para kahit pano unti unti kong maibalik ang dati...ung dati
