LL aspect
di ko nanaman alam kung panu ako mag uumpisa..to relate it to my last post, me and ian are back again..together again..i really love that person e...isa na siyang gamot for me and i really need him mamamatay siguro ako pag wala sya sa akin..exag na kung exag..i never loved the way i loved him in my life to date cguro..basta ang mga reason kaya kami nag aaway is because of me haha.. my mood swings at mga lalake ko!!!! yah wala akong mahal na iba, basta marami lang guys around me na ewan ko ba kung ilang beses pinanganak e... specifically nosyaj him <--..ibang level sya grabe... buti nga nakakatulog pa ako e...he keeps on bugging me. He calls every now and then and text me as if kami..Alam nya naman na may bf (means boy friend) na ako e.. at malinaw talaga pa tlaga sa sikat ng araw na friends lang tlga kami and he knows that before pa..he keeps on spending for me which lalong nakakainis kasi parang nagwawaste sya para sa wala..which he knows at okay lng daw sa kanya basta happy sya because he knows na true sya sa feelings nya for me... ayoko syanga mahurt since he is the best friend of my cuzn...but i have to reiterate muli sa kanya na friends lng tlga ang maiooffer ko sa kanya unless hiwalayan ako ni ian na ewan ko kung magagawa nya since we're really 'inlovewitheachother' drama...kahit ilang guys pa ang humarap sa akin e, NO NO talaga unless magloko si ian ng bonggang bongga e tlagang mabwi2sit at iiwan ko sya..hahaha
ACAD/FAMILY aspect
Isa pa tong out of order... as in super.. i already thought of it over and over again.. as in parang maaaning na ako every time ko itong isipin.. sobrang lame lang talaga ng reason kung bakit humantong ito ng ganun.. probably masisiwalat ko ito after ko na sigurong makagrad..coz i just dont feel like saying it right now... basta ang masasabi ko na lang.. cheers!!!
I told my mom the other reason kung bakit di muna ako makakagrad but definitely i'll say this as soon as the time comes... haay buhay tlga...pilitin ko mang sumunod sa nakaugalian na e, d ko talaga masunod...but still goal ko muna tlga matapos ang aking nasimulan to take the next step...kahit medyo matagal i do had the space to think and grow and know what i really wanted in life...kahit paunti unti...basta 7 or 8 years from now ang aking target date.!!! and i'll never give up kahit anu pa man ang mangyari!!!
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