I want to have a chow chow or labrador!!!..:D

I want to have a labrador or chow chow!!!....:D

i'll buy them soon..hopefully... but then mas mganda pag binigay sya di ba..=D
it will be greatly appreciated super!!
their name would be vanilla and chocolate respectively...=D
i'll be having them soon.. cross fingers!!

Knitty gritty conversation

======Knitty gritty conversation=====

Scenario: i just woke up this morning since di ako makatulog and puff the story came...neil and i have a story before and aun i think we are better off as friends tlga...just read n lng mga friends...

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Neil: aga magising a
Anjhe: o nga e...
Anjhe: maaga n rin ako natulog thats y
Neil: ahh
Neil: eh kamusta thesis niyo pala?
Anjhe: dnt ask
Anjhe: no comment
Neil: shet
Neil: sori
Anjhe: ok lnng
Neil: kaya niyo yan
Neil: God Bless
Anjhe: salamat
Anjhe: bkt kaw gcng k
Anjhe: p
Neil: night shift ako sa weekdays e
Neil: ndi ko na binabago ung oras ng tulog ko
Neil: para ndi na ako mahirapan
Neil: kaw y ka gising?
Anjhe: maaga lng talaga ako magcng lately
Anjhe: may inaupload din kasi ako
Anjhe: anung movie mgandang panuorin


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Neil: ngaun?
Neil: watchmen ba napanuod mo na?
Anjhe: di p e..maganda daw ung sabi
Neil: ye oks naman
Neil: you changed my life
Neil: ung kay john lloyd
Anjhe:
Anjhe: di e
Neil: ayaw mo nun?
Neil: ndi ka nanuod e
Neil: kaya ndi nag box office
Anjhe: cra
Anjhe: ncornihan ako sa preview e
Neil: haha
Neil: ndi naman a
Neil: joke
Neil: confessions of a shopaholic
Neil: dami nagandahan dun a
Anjhe: di p din
Neil: haha
Neil: tagal mo na rin pala ndi nakakanuod ng palabas a
Neil: bz ka e nh
Neil: ako nga twilight ndi ko pa napapanuod e
Anjhe: d din
Anjhe: walang nag yayaya
Neil: ung bf mo
Anjhe: no comment
Anjhe: ang tagal n nung twilyt ah
Neil: sori na
Neil: wala nagyayaya e
Anjhe: currently binabasa ko ung series ng twilyt
Neil: haha
Neil: anong volume ka na?
Neil: kwento ko sau gusto mo?
Neil: haha
Anjhe: eclipse na ko
Anjhe: hay nko nbasa mo n pla
Neil: haha
Neil: o tara g2 mo manuod ng sine?
Neil: tutal walang nagyayaya sa atin e
Anjhe: o nga e
Neil: o game ka?
Neil: libre na kita
Anjhe:
Neil: baka sabihin mo kuripot pa ako
Anjhe:
Anjhe: may gnun
Anjhe: wag n bka mglit gf mo
Neil: oww
Neil: meron ba ako nun?
Neil: haha
Anjhe: oo ithink
Neil: wala pa rin ata
Anjhe: bat dik manligaw
Anjhe: san b u nagwo2rk?
Neil: nawala na ung gusto ko
Neil: sa wideout
Anjhe: bkit nmatay b?
Anjhe: ah ok
Neil: napapunta sa iba
Anjhe: ah ook
Anjhe: kasi ka slow k ksi
Neil: ndi naman siguro
Anjhe: un b ung k course mo?
Neil: IST
Anjhe: oo
Neil: ndi
Neil: panu mo naman nasabing slow ako?
Anjhe: si jacque b un?
Anjhe: naunahan k kasi
Neil: ahh
Neil: si jacq pala
Anjhe: galit?
Neil: ako?
Anjhe: sorry i shouldnt hve mentiond
Neil: no
Neil: its fine
Neil: wala lang un si jacq
Neil: ndi ko naman xa iniyakan e
Neil: isang babae lang talaga iniyakan ko
Anjhe: ok
Anjhe: yikes
Neil: yikes?
Anjhe: cnu iniyakan mo
Neil: ndi mo ba tatanong kung sino?
Anjhe: yan n nga at tinanong ko
Neil: kilala mo yun
Neil: e ikaw un e
Anjhe:
Anjhe: sureness ka?
Neil: tatlong beses mo ako pinaiyak langya ka
Neil: ye..
Anjhe: waaaa
Anjhe: Y?
Anjhe: sori na
Neil: una
Neil: nung nag usap tau sa ym
Neil: ung pinagusapan natin ung tungkol sa sitwasyon natin
Neil: sunod nung nikwento ko kela danon
Neil: pangatlo nung nagtext ka
Anjhe: waaaa
Anjhe: im so sori
Neil: na "itigil na natin to"
Anjhe: i think i was hurt also
Neil: sori rin
Neil: akala ko tutuloy natin
Neil: ndi lang pala tau nagkaintindihan
Anjhe: my bad
Anjhe: kasi napaiyak kita
Anjhe: im sori
Anjhe:
Neil: oks lang
Neil: hehe
Anjhe: but i think ok din ung mga nangyari
Anjhe: nkget over k n ba?
Neil: uhm
Neil: ewan
Neil: minsan
Neil: kaya ayaw ko manligay
Neil: *manligaw ng iba
Neil: o magseryoso sa iba
Neil: hm
Neil: ndi wag na lang
Anjhe: may gnun
Anjhe: sori na
Anjhe: natrauma k pa ata
Anjhe: im really sori na
Anjhe: cnu ba mas na una si jacq o ako
Anjhe: ???
Neil: ok ba kau ng bf mo. inaalagaan ka ba niya?
Neil: ikaw
Anjhe: ah ok
Anjhe: oo ok nmn
Anjhe: kaso
Neil: kaso?
Anjhe: nafefeel ko lng na
Anjhe: i was out from the picture
Anjhe: pag kasama nya family nya
Anjhe: or friends
Anjhe: parang ganun
Anjhe: but then wag n nteng pag usapan
Neil: labas tau ngaun
Neil: pede ka ba?
Anjhe: ryt now ngyng umaaga?
Neil: mamayang umaga
Neil: 6 pa lang ngaun e
Neil: ito naman
Anjhe: oo nga ang aga pa
Anjhe: hmmmm
Anjhe: i should think about it first
Anjhe: u want kita kita tau minsan nila aubri
Anjhe:
Anjhe: ??
Neil: oks lang
Neil: pero
Neil: you owe me
Neil: pinaiyak mo ako dba
Neil: so..
Anjhe: fine fine
Neil: kelangan lumabas tau ngaun
Neil: llibre kita
Neil: ng sine
Neil: ng lunch
Anjhe: ang labo
Anjhe: i owe u tas ikaw manlilibre
Anjhe:
Neil: well
Neil: i only need your company
Neil: and to see you
Neil: malay mo
Anjhe: and to see me tlga e noh
Neil: puro puti na pala buhok ko
Anjhe:
Neil: tapos tabain n ako
Neil: ye
Neil: baka mamaya peke pic mo
Anjhe: may gnun
Anjhe: tange gnun p din ako noh
Neil: wee
Neil: patunayan mo
Anjhe: di nmn ako tumanda unlike u
Neil: way?
Neil: !?wat
Anjhe: nag gray na agad hair mo
Neil: hahah
Anjhe:
Neil: sama
Neil: tignan mo
Anjhe: di ah
Neil: kung nag gray na nga
Anjhe: ithink inexag mo lng
Neil: haha
Anjhe:
Neil: so
Neil: ano
Neil: pwde ba kita makita?
Neil: at g2 mo rin ba ako makita?
Anjhe: my gnun wait lng
Anjhe: di b pwedeng isched weekdays?
Neil: pwde rin
Neil: morning pwede ako
Neil: ngiht ndi
Neil: hehe
Anjhe: u know wat me too i think i need to see new company
Neil: night shift e
Anjhe: i mean previous company
Anjhe: nkakamiss kasi ang mga bonding before
Neil: ice cream moments?
Neil: and library
Neil: hehe joke
Anjhe: ya ryt
Anjhe:
Anjhe: so morning lng pwede
Neil: ye
Anjhe: kelan ba off mo
Neil: kasi ang pasok ko 11 midnight to 8 am
Neil: 11 pm pala
Neil: sori
Anjhe: ok
Neil: monday ng umaga wala ako pasok
Neil: hehe
Anjhe: wait may icheck lng ako
Anjhe: if u want fri bago ka pumasok?
Anjhe: san b ung wideout?
Neil: sa makati lang
Neil: hehe
Neil: talagang pinasasabik mo pa ako a
Neil: sa friday pa
Neil: hahaha
Anjhe: ayaw mo yun
Anjhe: at least u have time para makapag isip ng mga machichika
Neil: ngaun pa lang madami na
Anjhe: o nga e
Neil: ndi pa pede today at friday?
Neil: hahaha
Anjhe: ,may gnun
Anjhe: friday n lng
Anjhe: at wait
Anjhe: san pla
Anjhe: ???
Neil: malapit lang sa inyo
Neil: pq ka pa rin naman dba
Neil: ?
Anjhe: yep
Neil: para mahatid kita
Neil: pauwi
Neil: siguro
Neil: sa moa?
Anjhe: im thinking of that nga e
Anjhe: cge sa moa n lng
Anjhe: cool ng mga bar dun
Neil: sige nga
Neil: pasyal mo ako
Anjhe: kmi nila anne pumunta last fri nyt dun
Neil: un ang utang mo sa akin
Anjhe: may gnun
Neil: ay wag tau iinom a
Neil: papasok ako
Neil: hahaha
Anjhe: dapat before 11pm
Anjhe: bka kasi malate ka e
Neil: ye
Neil: hehe
Neil: uhm
Neil: pede ba kita tawagan sa cel mo ngaun?
Neil: nakalimutan ko na rin kasi boses mo e
Anjhe: may gnun
Anjhe: reunion ito
Anjhe:
Anjhe: gusto magsama tau ng iba?
Anjhe: watcha think
Neil: wag na
Neil: ikaw lang naman namiss ko e
Anjhe: may gnun fine fine
Anjhe: para mkabawi sa mga heartaches
Anjhe: n gnwa ko sau
Neil: uhm
Neil: yea
Neil: baka kasi ako lang ung umiyak
Neil: sa ating dalawa
Anjhe: di ah
Anjhe: i also cry too
Anjhe: di lng ako
Anjhe: pero nkget over na ko
Anjhe: kaw ata di pa
Neil: onga e
Neil: kasi may bf ka na
Anjhe: kya di ka p nanliligaw e
Neil: bilis mo xa sinagot e
Anjhe: sori na
Neil: pede ba kita tawagan?
Anjhe: one bar n lng ata ung phone ko
Neil: oks lang
Neil: one bar is enough
Anjhe:
Neil: para macharge mo na rin
Anjhe: fine fine
Neil: 09273618687?
Anjhe: bka macut ah
Neil: basta nagkaconnect
Neil: ok na un
Anjhe: aba meron k p ding num ko
Neil: xempre
Anjhe: fine fine
Anjhe: see
Anjhe: abi ko sau low bat n ksi ako
Neil: ndi tau nagkaconne ct
Neil: landline?
Anjhe: narinig ko kasi ng empty bat n nga
Neil: waaaa
Anjhe: ok lng
Neil: ano ulit number mo sa landline?
Anjhe: 8221308
Anjhe: tlga persistent ah
Neil: baka sabihin mong slow ako e
Anjhe:
Anjhe: may gnun
Neil: kaya ngaun na tau magkita
Neil: para quick
Anjhe: magkakareunion nmn tau dis fri ah
Neil: tagal e
Anjhe: family day po kasi ngyn e
Anjhe: bka magsimba kami
Neil: balak ko nga ndi sumama sa family ko e
Neil: haha
Anjhe: nmn
Neil: may lakad kami ngaun e
Neil: ndi sana ako sasama kung papayag ka
Anjhe: see
Neil: wat time ba church mo?
Anjhe: mas impt cla
Anjhe: mga 9-12 ata
Neil: ayun
Neil: e 1 onwards ano gagawin mo?
Neil:
Anjhe: tulog?
Anjhe:
Neil: gising
Neil: kasama ako
Anjhe:
Neil: haha
Neil: sunday and friday na
Neil: kasi 3 times mo ako pinaiyak
Neil: kulang ka pa ng isang araw sa akin
Anjhe: pwede b ung first day n lng sa fri
Anjhe:
Neil: owwww
Neil: kasi
Neil: g2 ko kasama ka manuod ng watchmen
Neil: hahaha
Anjhe: napanuod mo n b un?
Neil: ndi pa
Neil: sabay sana tau
Neil: hehe
Neil: kasi kapag friday
Neil: ndi natin mapapanuod
Neil: alanganin
Neil: baka kain, timezone lang magawa natin
Anjhe: cra meron p un for sure
Anjhe:
Neil: haha
Neil: at ice cream
Neil: ice cream while skating
Neil: gud luck sa atin
Neil: haha
Neil: tawagan na kita?
Anjhe: ang daming plan ah
Neil: haha
Neil: joke
Anjhe: cge oklng
Neil: ok na ngaun?
Anjhe: yep
Anjhe: ok lng
Neil: ngaun lalabnas?
Anjhe: di
Neil: *lalabas?
Neil: haha
Neil: sayang
Anjhe: tatawag k di ba
Neil: ye
Neil: patawag na
Anjhe: wait
Neil: y>?
Neil: binaba ko na
Anjhe: cge
Neil: twag na ako a
Anjhe: ok
Neil: iniintay kita
Neil:
Anjhe: hoy
Anjhe:
Neil: ano innupload mo?
Neil: hehe
Neil: cute mo pa rin pakinggan
Anjhe:
Anjhe: mga videos
Neil: o?
Neil: baka masamang mga vidz yan
Anjhe: di ah
Anjhe: tgal n kasi nun
Neil: haha jke
Anjhe: boyce ave videos un
Anjhe: nung nanuod kmi last time sa mega mall
Neil: ahh
Neil: naks naman
Neil: sino kasama mo
Neil: ?
Anjhe: mga friends
Anjhe: mga gay friends
Anjhe:
Neil: ahh
Neil: hahaha
Neil: sipag
Neil: haha
Anjhe: sa fri n nten pag usapan
Anjhe:
Neil: hehe ok
Neil: ndi ka ba matutulog pa?
Anjhe: later
Anjhe:
Neil: hehe
Neil: oks
Anjhe: bka hapon n
Neil: wag ka mag alala
Neil: aalagaan kita sa friday
Neil is typing a message.
Neil: :)
Anjhe: :))

Poker Face

Change is the only permanent thing in the whole wide world!!!

yup..i really agree.. ewn ko ba.. lhat n lng ata ng kinaaayawan ko e natripan ko na now...like not so bad vices na ayaw ko b4 but im doing them.. like smoking(occasional lng to), poker..:D, tska aun na un... all good gurls go wild ika nga...tsk tsk life life...
neweiz so many things to look forward to and im quite excited thinking of them...:D
but then di ako magiging assuming...hopefully ung promotion e matuloy o..since their is a new account sana makapasok ako sa banga...:D
i consider it na stepping stone na din habang di pa ako grad... i know the ryt time will come..i do also consider this na.. if a door close a new window will open..as in..at eto pa..look into the brighter side "come on!!!" <-with strong diction yan...
aun excited this sat...hopefully masurprise si ian sa gagawin ko...hahahahh not surprise ma appreciate pla...nasabi ko na pla kasi kanina ung surprise ko kaya wla na...ahahahha :D
babush

LSS ===>> Boyce Avenue - Disturbia

Boyce Avenue - Disturbia lyrics

No more gas in the rig, can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said, can't even speak about it
All my life, on my head, don't wanna think about it
Feels like I'm going insane, yeah

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort

Oh put on your brake lights, you're in the city of wonder
Ain't gona play nice, watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your minds in disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, oh disturbia

Faded pictures on the wall, it's like they talking to me
Disconnecting phone calls, the phone don't even ring
I gotta get out oh figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort, oh

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
I feel like a monster, oh

Put on your brake lights, you're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice, watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your minds in disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, oh disturbia

Disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, oh disturbia



Lyrics | Boyce Avenue lyrics - Disturbia lyrics

update 101 ulit

update 101 ulit

waaaa define freaky daw!!!! taena!!!
this day was a DAAAAAYyYYYY!!!! grabe ayoko n ng lalaki lord....
nasosobrahan na po ako ....
(currently playing acoustic songs by boyce avenue...i thought they were yuck but im d hell stupid since there freakingly awesome!! winner)

i'll be starting my update ryt now sa chat namen ni em sa ym here it is:

Em-Em Baladjay: I get it..
Em-Em Baladjay: Tama na.. Titigilan ko na..
Em-Em Baladjay: Thanks for trying..
Anjhe: em?
Anjhe: ok lng ba?
Em-Em Baladjay: Ayos lang yun..
Em-Em Baladjay: I'll go somewhere na lang..
Em-Em Baladjay:
Anjhe:
Anjhe: nman o
Em-Em Baladjay: May plan na kayo ni Ian for Sat?
Anjhe: kasi pinatry mo pa sakin e
Anjhe: motel
Anjhe:
Anjhe: joke
Em-Em Baladjay: Ok lang.. Atleast now I know..
Anjhe: haan mo n sya ok
Anjhe: last n un
Em-Em Baladjay: Promise last na yun..
Anjhe: gud
Anjhe: anu b plan mo gusto mo ba kasama?
Anjhe: gusto ko sanang mag aya kaso wla ako fulus
Anjhe:
Em-Em Baladjay: fulus?
Anjhe: pera
Anjhe: sori na


hopia--stop!!!
aun basicallly may pinagawa sya sa akin... actually she meant doin this is to have closure sa kanila ng kanyang past fling flingan... and he is also my dear friend...
kung pwede lng mamahagi ng lalaki o....
ja and em..ja who recently had a break up with his bf..basically i dunno who the hell is the guy but then i hate him kahit na nkwento lng sya smin sa ym last two nyts ago.. bullshit ang kutilyon..!@#!@! crap tlga my kulto kaya dun...and emy who just wants some closure with my friend also kaso...haay somewhat bitter p din c guy sa nangyari sa kanila last time...i taught natuldukan na ang tension sa kanila but it seems di p din nagwork out...
my two close friends ... mukhang nagsabay pa sila na maging bitter this valentines...
i hate guys that makes paasa sa lhat ...their bunch of bitches!!!! super i want to kick their asses!!!!
i will reiterate again and again na super bullshit ung mga guys na nagfefeeling taena nyo!!! u dont deserve someone special that i know.. do ur thing mag isa nyo bitch!!!!!grrrrrr

neweiz earlier nung mga uuwi na kmi ng hapon.. grbe itey!!! di ko carry ang mga pangyayari... mc pipz from d 10th flr went at 9th(kung asan kmi) just to ask wat i want?!!!!white chocolate or plain chocolate, and white roses or red roses? waa!@##@$@!!!!

kasi ganito yan... where about to leave ng maaga and of course kailangn nming magpa-tag sa kanila - mc(mission control they are the one that maintains the number of calls to be distributed and handled by the site) tama ba?!!! eneweiz... aun nga pinilit lng ako na tumawag para ipa-tag ung gustong umalis ng maaga... well aun since boss ung nagrequest ayoko mag inarte baka mawala ako ng bigla sa vz hahahah kidding but then aun nga nag ask ng series of question ang mga katauhan sa 10th askin usual stuff.. nahiya lng ako since parang nagkwentuhan kmi wyl in the office using the phone which n dapat work related lng... but aun nga nagpakilala lng sila kaya sila bumaba...:( kaloka kinabahan ako... aun hopefully wag na sanang grumabe bukas ... please dont tease me...may mahal akong tao at mahal na mahal nya ko?? tama b un hon??!!

eto pa huling hirit sa araw na to.....
grabe ibang level ang mga katauhan sa tp sobra.. lakas ng loob at fighting spirit ..saludo ako sa kalakasan ng loon nila tlga
basta magegets nyo ung text at reply ko sa knya ..take note ha i just replied to him this day lng since once in a wyl or i mean every day nagmimiscol sya!!!! nice p din nmn ako kahit panu...\:D
here it is
Melo: (miscall again series)
Anjhe: y?
Melo:busy ka? bkt ngyn k lng ngtxt?
Anjhe: wla lng..nagmi2scol k kc once in a wyl..
Melo:bkt di kna ngreply nung huli tyo ngtxt,gwa m?mis kta=<
Anjhe:Scard..freaky mu kc e.?!
Melo:bkit naman?u dnt like me b?
Anjhe:D u knw wat u'r sayng? We havnt knwn each odr dat long.. tas s2bhn mu yan..freaky.. I dnt want to offend u ha..:)
Melo:how do u define freaky? sori ha, if its ok wid u labas tyo minsan?
Anjhe:Not usual ung mga txt mu.. to thnk na pnakilala u n kua romel..and i gav u my num knwing na friend lng tlga intention mo..and then saying stuf n unusual dats freaky for me....
Melo:im sori if u feel dat way, may i invite u out sometime for us to get 2 knw each other.kng ok lng sau?
Anjhe:My bf ako... i dnt thnk n mgu2stuhan po nya un.
Melo:so ayaw m?=
Anjhe:U can nman.. but d lng ako dapt..
Melo:wat do u min by dat?
Anjhe:Meaning my ksma taung iba...
Melo:bkt naman di pde tyo dalawa lng, wla kba tiwala sken?wala naman ako ggwin msama sau. cno naman ksma nten if ever?
Anjhe:hmmm i dunno d ko p alam...
Melo:dba pde tyo 2 lng?gudboi naman ako, idnt hve any bad intentions naman

aun ayoko na magreply sa knya....
when i told my mom wats going on with me recently.. she told me na she just wants me to graduate...(period) i do really want to but i know that my time tlga un.. at darating din sya..pinapackage lng ng bonggang bonggang for me...
kakatuwa nga si mama as if mag aasawa na ko..todo kwento kasi ako ng mga boylets ko....she wants someone na she wants... aun lng no details attach baka malaman ng mga katauhan at magustuhan na lng ni mama for me....:p

aside from this... di na si sir bong ang sup nmen...:( kaya pla sir ali mentioned earlier na if nagkalipatan na kukunin nya daw ako sa team nya..hmmm well di ko na figure out again na it is really soon o...haay i really enjoy the compny of my coworkers and teammates in tp...

im somewat excited na 2m, sa sat, and sa sun..kaso wala ako money!!! i splurge it last time...but thnx to my mom at sya bhala saken nxt week ..whew!! wat a relief kaso walang pang splurge sa kung ano ano tom.. wag nyo ako iB.I.
sa sat -> as want i've said ayokong mag expect period >,<
sa sun -> gusto ko manuod ng boyce avenue sa mega 7.30pm on sunday!!! whohooh!!!

looking forward for american idol season 8... maraming dapat abangn!!!! whehW
bb for now
****end****

random thoughts

random thoughts

mga recent stuff n pinagkakaabalahan ...

ipamper ang sarili ....

eat... eat ... eat....

bonding.. bonding with ian...

chika chika with friends....

updates with their love life...

thinkin of thesis ....

thinkin of cebu... cebu .. cebu...

reading mode for me to sleep tyt...

bein bug by someone and letting them bug me ....

thinkin of many plans...

like.. i want to look daring hahaha soon... :P

summer summer summer....

cant wait...

New moon update

New moon update

Some excerpt from new moon: one of my fav lines sa book...last part n ung mga natripan ko since dun lng nagparamdam si pareng Edward..=))


If i let myself hope, and it came to nothing....that would kill me.
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This is really true... dont expect !!!


To examine the hypothesis that he did love me, while staying objective, clinical, so I wouldn't fall into the trap of hoping.
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Just caught my attention ... iniicp ko p din up to now...


"You could mean it..now. But what about tomorrow, when you think about all the reasons you left in the first place? Or next month,"
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i just agree... all the way

my first ever digicam

my first ever digicam

i feel so satisfied having ma own digicam ever.. meet sony w120 cyber shot..
lovin it!!! superb device.. your money is worth it!!!
i really love the style and color.. it really soothes my style since my shade ng fav ko na color which is blue...
good thing since inuna ko tong investment which is really needed sa upcoming gala galore this summer so excited...!!
i'll be using wat i have to capture all things that i really want to treasure in my entire life....that of course money cant buy... hahahaha malalim yan...!!

SHARING TIME
also i would like to share, God really let things happen for a reason...i mean he never let you be on a state or situation na your sad, gloomy and all..
he make or decide that to happen for me to learn and realize what im missing/lacking and should be appreciative in all that i have.. di lagi na down ka or wat.. never ka nya tlga iniwan after all the struggles and sufferings i've encounter in my entire college life..super as in and i believe everybody knows that..... he is still there besides me in any decisions and plans i have in the future...
i'll be down right now on this very moment in time but it will eventually last sooner or later..without you or me noticing it...and in the end im still the winner of my own battle.. it will be something that i have gone through successfully without breaking out or wat...im still waiting for it to happen and i'll do watever it takes to get and aim that...for me of course to deserve the prize of that, i'll have to work and put my heart and knowledge in to it.....super needed na tlga ito... forever crazy ..zzz..

enough is enough

::absurd:meaningless::

im not happy...naiinis sa sarili at bagot na bagot...

since kahapon at today ; ang pangit ng araw ko....

pati sa mga nkasama ko kahapon banas ako; except for my thesis groupm8s

sa mga taong nkita ko n lng.. ung nakakainis at kinababanasan ko...

sa lhat p nmn ng pwede kong makita sya pa di ba!??

stress n stress na ako and i need someone...jacob knows it..

cnu pwede dyan..taena....~!!!!!.!.

Kettle Korn

Kettle Korn

addiction na sa kettle korn... walang kasawaan sa pagchicha ng popcorn...=D

updates..updates..updates..updates..updates..updates..updates..updates.
playing the album of boys and girls... they rock..only their album not them.. :p ;p

o ha, o ha ito na update ko o... sa mga walang alam saken o eto na matinding update kahapon at today...

--------> JAN 19, 2009 Monday

maaga nagicng..chika chika with chintang and kuya rommel...tas alis na...
Meeting with thesis mates ng umaga... kaso tinanghali na ko actually submission lng ng update form for ms kiran.. so aun mga lunch time na ako nakarating ng taft tas kain muna sa jobee with honey :)) aun im so happy coz many peepz actually selected lng e.. appreciate the oatmeal cookies na binake ko recently hahahahah first time ko lng but then they said that it tastes lyk a cookie tlga hahaha....ehemmm hahah a (cge na first time ko nman e)

After kumain arena na... bwicit tlga dun kasi ang ingay men f..k.. haay but then i have to bare with them...aun after that i met carmz sa egi dimsum and dupplings tas aun shockers tlga i didnt expect na andun c sir ona...bonggang bongga tlga o... haay set some deadlines and stuff tas after nun deck and i will just wait for jm para ma-sign ung form at makaalis na at magpapapedicure pa ang lola mo...

So aun nga while were waiting sa conserv e nakita nmin ang baklang jacobi tas un...chika ng latest chismwaks :)) at nman oo ibang level n tlga ang mga gayness sa surface ng world....hahahah makavisit nga sa bed one time...bwahahaha kidding... neweiz umalis din ako agad pagdating nung inaantay...

At eto ang twist that day e... i taught tlga e di na matutuloy ung lakad nmin ni pareng jayson... aun nagtext and his waiting for me sa rob sa cheese cake... hay e nakatulog ako sa paghihintay n matuyo ung pinapedicure ko... tas aun no choice since na set n nmin un last week since paalis n sya...we ate at an ice cream parlor... really yummy nung desserts haay heaven..kaso calories ang abot mo tlga...but thats a nice treat from him... we're kinda going out just for the sake of my cuzn...try to read my other posts to get the story well... dont want to post the details of the conversation we had since bka mabangasan na ako ng bf ko neto hahahaha but actually not so special ... bluff nya lng hahhaha...but his my friend period...wag lng nya mabasa to.. bwahahaah but then ganun tlga feelings ko for him ... hay complicated n tlga gusto nya mangyari...haay,...sabihin ko na nga status nya at ako... ako ay my bf at sya ay my gf during his stay in gensan...pero actually wala ako pakels kahit mgkaroon sya ng gf or wat since i have my own and im contented...i just want ian and i to stay and maintain what we have right now... hmmmmm,.,, since babalik n sya venezuela by feb and babalik p sya after one year he wants me to wait for him knowing my current gf sya and telling na he just wants some company na nhanap nya sa gurlaloo n un...until makabalik sya...hussh syempre pabiro n lng ang respond ko... but im not giving him any word...bala sya... i want us just to be friends... friends only.. no more no less...

--------> JAN 20, 2009

Update today.... sad nung hapon...biglang sumaya bago dumirecho umuwi...we ate sa shang me, chintang, ate junee, and kuya archie, haay basag n basag ako sa mga hirit ni kuya arch nman o... lagi na lng since nagstart ako magwork lagi n lng akong tampuhan ng biruhan at kung anu anu pa...para na nga akong tange sa kakaride e....

Going back...im sad and somewhat nr sa mga chismis sa paligid ligid...i really dont mind what other thinks of me....im living my life the way i want... and no one will dare to ruin it...bwahhahah
im currently happy right now...:D

P.S ;lagi akong bangag while updating my blog....kaya sori sa typo at sa composition ng mga kung anu anung words dyan....
Buz buzhan this week....babush....

status

Friends n kmi ni usman..(period)
...lost.....

HOLY COW WAAWA..

HOLY COW WAAWA..sya yan ----> ----> ----> ---->---->

stalker kung stalker !!!!
im crazy na talga.. bwahahah
here's the thing my hinanting ako na cx ng aming company!!!!
bwahahaha! and i knew it meron syang myspace kaloka ito....
tumwg sya kasi di sya maka online thru wireless..well bonggang bongga ang gta moments!!!!
winner tlga i saw his desktop with his picture ... and of course i took his name and number hahahah
buti natago ko ung name nya sa mga maaayos kong papers!!!

Tell me im crazy..because i really am since i add him in my list sa myspace... i hope he accept me hahahah
magpapakilala ang lola nyo as the tech agent na nakakausap nya...and let see what will be his reaction ahahahah...let me try if gagana ang powers ko dito sa kups na to... !!!!
and i'll update u soon for this quest... so exciting!!!!!!!!!!! grbe... hahahha

Letter R.E.N

+++---Sunday, December 21, 2008, 9:25:20 PM----++

way way wayway
so many things happen to me
cant believe na ganun ung mangyayari sa friend ko
it started kasi nung tbay
he is just a guy a friend
ganun lng talga
here's the point
he fell for me
but i refused
he never seems to show and tell na ganun nga
ayoko pa nman sa lahat na my hidden intentions and used to be friend ko
i just want to stay that way .. as friends tlga
i never see the spark kasi e
he seems so nice nman as a friend
at aun lng talga ang mabibigay ko
i never intend to hurt someone's feeling
that i sometimes do... i mean always because of me
ako cnisisi nila
but what can i do
ganito ako
it takes time talaga for me to change
here is the scenario actually usual mo tlga sya mapapanood sa mga teleserye
hahahhaha
SCENE
LAGUNA - > team building - > inom kain kanta yosi sugal inom asaran inom kanta kanta pa inom pa at swimming after
EXENA - > nalasing or ewan ko nalasing ata -> eventually he said things na he really dont mean well actually he mean half of it
he do say he love me and said na sagutin ko na din sya or he even say na mahalin ko din sya ?!@!#!@
i really dont know sa kanya!!! parepareho lng nman kmi ng ininom but i think mas marami ung sa kanya
i dont get it tlaga tsk tsk tsk yan nahiya tuloy saken but i dont seem to mind actually
sa akin ganun p din nman sya sa akin even though he told me everything in his heart and im sori if i refuse coz di tlga ok ung settings bsta awkward lng
please do forgive me also if i say harsh words im also tipsy dat nyt
di ko din alam sinasabi ko
but what i say is true
ayoko maapektuhan ang ating friendship since its still starting ..tsk tsk tsk

+++---Sunday, December 21, 2008, 9:25:20 PM----++

Mark Alvin Ryan Nuestro

++----Sunday, December 21, 2008, 9:02:10 PM---+++

december 21, 2008
haay haay haay
ang kulit nanaman ng twist oo
my request was answered
i just cant believe
di ko pa nga pinost ung first blog ko e nagkaroon
na agad hahahha
im happy right now but i know its just temporary
in lieu sa aking first blog e my dumating nga
masarap sya asarin at natutuwa ako pag naaasar ko sya
somehow he is nice and very very helpful to all
i mean he is really nice kaso naku ewan ko lng ha kung sadyang nasalo nya lahat ng katorpehan ng langit
hahahahha
but i think nasa loob din ang kulo neto
let see how long
he came before mag xmas
ang saya ng simple
natutuwa ako every day dahil natutuwa lng ako
its so simple
just enjoy the moments
and dont think na it will be over
actually he is not a bf material but then andun ung hinahanap ko na traits which is di magfa fall in love sa akin
actually i could enhance him in a way coz he seems to be so serious but he really makes me laugh kaya nga right now

e natatawa ako sa kanya tska sa mga hirit nya na halata na di implied gets hahahahah
for me he is mysterious and he is really interesting kasi tahimik at di pasalita

ang epal kasi nya e para lng cra ahahahha

i think i cant just sleep with out music this night i love it
the feeling of being felt

OK na OK na EOP

++----Sunday, December 21, 2008, 9:02:10 PM---+++

update ito nga

+-----Monday, December 08, 2008, 9:32:58 PM----+
My entry for the kahapon...
Listening to the song Thunder by Boys and Girls and Im yours by Jason Mraz
Gloomy day ..not happy...sad - no but depress

i need someone...that would help me... preferably ung makakasama ko lagi pag-uwi at game ako kausapin thru phone, cp or even pag nagyaya lng ako to talk to..someone na hindi ako magugustuhan...meaning kakaayawan nya ako
that's what i need ung tao na game ako pakinggan khit non-sense na pinagsasabi ko basta wag lang sya magkakagusto sa akin in the end......
i need someone na binabale wala lang ako at game sya na i-bug ko everytime na gusto ko lang basta di sya mag-fa2fall sa akin......dont dare to confess!!!!!!!!!!!
i need someone na maiintindihan ako and of course ma-aaccept ako kung anu ako......but then again di sya magkakagusto at magfa2fall in love sa akin......

gusto ko nman marefuse ng guy...mabusted ng guy...mabwisit sa akin dahil epal ako...kaasaran ako but willing pa din ako kausapin...asarin ako kasi ganito at ganyan ako....but still concern sa akin

ayoko ng maarte..vain..mas vain pa saken...mayabang...at ayoko sa lahat e magfefeling ... ung gusto ko din pla is kontento kung anu sya...

kawawang blog naman to...seems lagi ko binubuhos angdepression at frustation ko...

im gonna use this blog also para makahanap ako ng tao na tinutukoy ko ... u can apply directly to me.... restricted pala ung mga nakakakilala sa akin tska kilala ko...mas maigi ung stranger ung dating e ung parang napadaan lang pero walang hidden agenda...

hopefully mahanap kita or mas maigi magpakita ka na lng para di ako mahirapan mambwisit sau!!! hopefully game ka!!!
on or before dec 24 para sumaya pasko ko sa kakabwisit sau...:D i'll be much happy and willing to welcome u soon:D

+-----Monday, December 08, 2008, 9:32:58 PM----+

A lot like love

I'll be there for you By Bon Jovi
(One of the soundtrack of the movie A lot like love sang by My Ashton Kutcher!!)

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I really love that movie...:D

Busted

Busted - Out of Order

LL aspect

di ko nanaman alam kung panu ako mag uumpisa..to relate it to my last post, me and ian are back again..together again..i really love that person e...isa na siyang gamot for me and i really need him mamamatay siguro ako pag wala sya sa akin..exag na kung exag..i never loved the way i loved him in my life to date cguro..basta ang mga reason kaya kami nag aaway is because of me haha.. my mood swings at mga lalake ko!!!! yah wala akong mahal na iba, basta marami lang guys around me na ewan ko ba kung ilang beses pinanganak e... specifically nosyaj him <--..ibang level sya grabe... buti nga nakakatulog pa ako e...he keeps on bugging me. He calls every now and then and text me as if kami..Alam nya naman na may bf (means boy friend) na ako e.. at malinaw talaga pa tlaga sa sikat ng araw na friends lang tlga kami and he knows that before pa..he keeps on spending for me which lalong nakakainis kasi parang nagwawaste sya para sa wala..which he knows at okay lng daw sa kanya basta happy sya because he knows na true sya sa feelings nya for me... ayoko syanga mahurt since he is the best friend of my cuzn...but i have to reiterate muli sa kanya na friends lng tlga ang maiooffer ko sa kanya unless hiwalayan ako ni ian na ewan ko kung magagawa nya since we're really 'inlovewitheachother' drama...kahit ilang guys pa ang humarap sa akin e, NO NO talaga unless magloko si ian ng bonggang bongga e tlagang mabwi2sit at iiwan ko sya..hahaha

ACAD/FAMILY aspect

Isa pa tong out of order... as in super.. i already thought of it over and over again.. as in parang maaaning na ako every time ko itong isipin.. sobrang lame lang talaga ng reason kung bakit humantong ito ng ganun.. probably masisiwalat ko ito after ko na sigurong makagrad..coz i just dont feel like saying it right now... basta ang masasabi ko na lang.. cheers!!!

I told my mom the other reason kung bakit di muna ako makakagrad but definitely i'll say this as soon as the time comes... haay buhay tlga...pilitin ko mang sumunod sa nakaugalian na e, d ko talaga masunod...but still goal ko muna tlga matapos ang aking nasimulan to take the next step...kahit medyo matagal i do had the space to think and grow and know what i really wanted in life...kahit paunti unti...basta 7 or 8 years from now ang aking target date.!!! and i'll never give up kahit anu pa man ang mangyari!!!

Olats..iwas as gap-bigi

how hard is it to stop the heart from loving?
as much as hard to stop the eye from blinking.
the more you control it, the more it hurts...
-quote na finorward lng sa akin


"ang tanga ko!"..may moment in time talaga na masasabi mo ang phrase na ito sa sarili mo.. perfect na ung iba tlga pag di nila sinabi yan sa sarili nila...napakasakit at napakalungkot ng feeling.....itong araw na ito na siguro ang isa sa pinakamalungkot na part ng life ko at sa life din ni ian....im really stupid talaga i should have listen from the very start..ang lame lang ng reason syempre as usual ako ulit ang may kasalanan..kelan kaya ung iba nman ung may kasalanan para maiba?!mahal ko pa din sya..sana ganun din sya...sana next month kami na ulit..or sa susunod kami ulit.....i still want him badly kaso my mga instances na i dont deserve him at parang ayaw ko na maging kami....baliw na talaga ako.....haay basta just dont ask me!!! i dont consider him as my ex anyway..coz i still love him so much...i want you back soon hon...

nilay nilay

nilay nilay

sa ibang nakakakilala sakin marahil ang tingin e napaka babang babae ko,(di ba anne, ja, aubs,deck,tin,jacob,mat,drei,step, nel at sa iba na nakakaalam ng storya ko ngayon sa buhay)...well thats true..gusto ko ibalik ung dating ako.. i just want to be simple and all. gusto ko ung simple at mapagmahal na ako.. i think i have to break this very strong shield na nakabalot sa aking mga mata lalo na sa isipan ko..i want to meet someone again..na mas better na someone i could look up to..someone na good influence that could bring me back..the old angelica that my little sister is talkin about..i want to bring her again.
i just want to feel better again..i want to bring back the real me..if people ask if im ok or wat.. well probably my answer would be yes im good.. but deep inside my inner self.. i dont think so.. im ragged and covered with molds..how could i ever be back again ... my little sister is right.. im not me unlike before..that phrase really kept me thinkin because i cant believe my sister would say that to me.. na she said di naman daw ako ganito dati..it really confuses me.. na i asked her na anu ba ako dati na hindi ngyon.. and you wont believe kung ano ung mga sinabi nya that really shocked me..tama sya.. ang laki nga tlaga ng difference at grabe ung mga changes na iyon..i ask myself ganito ba tlga ung mga nagbago sa akin..well i think di ko na mababago ang mga nangyari at di ko maibabalik ung mga nawala sa akin..sobrang stupida ko at tanga.. but meron kayang isang tao na matatanggap pa ang aking pinagdadaanan ngayon..na kaya akong tanggapin kung ano nangyari sa akin...siguro masasabi ko na lng.. it just happen and i dont regret at all .. part din kasi ako ng mga nangyari.. natatakot na ako sa naging ako.. sa naging ako with this past few years.. well probably i think im really miserable when i became 19 up to now...di ko na talaga maisip.. i need counseling..

Black sheep.. oo fine black sheep na ako ng family nmin.. i really admit it.. before they've been proud of me way back hanggang mag 1st year college ako but nagsimula na lahat ng mga pangarap ko ay mabuwag.. how could i mend all of this.. my parents dont have trust on me anymore.. really scary.. seeing myself today really frighten me..how how

kung mababalik ko lamang ang lahat..can someone say to me what am i way back..para kahit pano unti unti kong maibalik ang dati...ung dati