A lot like love

I'll be there for you By Bon Jovi
(One of the soundtrack of the movie A lot like love sang by My Ashton Kutcher!!)

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I really love that movie...:D

Busted

Busted - Out of Order

LL aspect

di ko nanaman alam kung panu ako mag uumpisa..to relate it to my last post, me and ian are back again..together again..i really love that person e...isa na siyang gamot for me and i really need him mamamatay siguro ako pag wala sya sa akin..exag na kung exag..i never loved the way i loved him in my life to date cguro..basta ang mga reason kaya kami nag aaway is because of me haha.. my mood swings at mga lalake ko!!!! yah wala akong mahal na iba, basta marami lang guys around me na ewan ko ba kung ilang beses pinanganak e... specifically nosyaj him <--..ibang level sya grabe... buti nga nakakatulog pa ako e...he keeps on bugging me. He calls every now and then and text me as if kami..Alam nya naman na may bf (means boy friend) na ako e.. at malinaw talaga pa tlaga sa sikat ng araw na friends lang tlga kami and he knows that before pa..he keeps on spending for me which lalong nakakainis kasi parang nagwawaste sya para sa wala..which he knows at okay lng daw sa kanya basta happy sya because he knows na true sya sa feelings nya for me... ayoko syanga mahurt since he is the best friend of my cuzn...but i have to reiterate muli sa kanya na friends lng tlga ang maiooffer ko sa kanya unless hiwalayan ako ni ian na ewan ko kung magagawa nya since we're really 'inlovewitheachother' drama...kahit ilang guys pa ang humarap sa akin e, NO NO talaga unless magloko si ian ng bonggang bongga e tlagang mabwi2sit at iiwan ko sya..hahaha

ACAD/FAMILY aspect

Isa pa tong out of order... as in super.. i already thought of it over and over again.. as in parang maaaning na ako every time ko itong isipin.. sobrang lame lang talaga ng reason kung bakit humantong ito ng ganun.. probably masisiwalat ko ito after ko na sigurong makagrad..coz i just dont feel like saying it right now... basta ang masasabi ko na lang.. cheers!!!

I told my mom the other reason kung bakit di muna ako makakagrad but definitely i'll say this as soon as the time comes... haay buhay tlga...pilitin ko mang sumunod sa nakaugalian na e, d ko talaga masunod...but still goal ko muna tlga matapos ang aking nasimulan to take the next step...kahit medyo matagal i do had the space to think and grow and know what i really wanted in life...kahit paunti unti...basta 7 or 8 years from now ang aking target date.!!! and i'll never give up kahit anu pa man ang mangyari!!!

Olats..iwas as gap-bigi

how hard is it to stop the heart from loving?
as much as hard to stop the eye from blinking.
the more you control it, the more it hurts...
-quote na finorward lng sa akin


"ang tanga ko!"..may moment in time talaga na masasabi mo ang phrase na ito sa sarili mo.. perfect na ung iba tlga pag di nila sinabi yan sa sarili nila...napakasakit at napakalungkot ng feeling.....itong araw na ito na siguro ang isa sa pinakamalungkot na part ng life ko at sa life din ni ian....im really stupid talaga i should have listen from the very start..ang lame lang ng reason syempre as usual ako ulit ang may kasalanan..kelan kaya ung iba nman ung may kasalanan para maiba?!mahal ko pa din sya..sana ganun din sya...sana next month kami na ulit..or sa susunod kami ulit.....i still want him badly kaso my mga instances na i dont deserve him at parang ayaw ko na maging kami....baliw na talaga ako.....haay basta just dont ask me!!! i dont consider him as my ex anyway..coz i still love him so much...i want you back soon hon...

nilay nilay

nilay nilay

sa ibang nakakakilala sakin marahil ang tingin e napaka babang babae ko,(di ba anne, ja, aubs,deck,tin,jacob,mat,drei,step, nel at sa iba na nakakaalam ng storya ko ngayon sa buhay)...well thats true..gusto ko ibalik ung dating ako.. i just want to be simple and all. gusto ko ung simple at mapagmahal na ako.. i think i have to break this very strong shield na nakabalot sa aking mga mata lalo na sa isipan ko..i want to meet someone again..na mas better na someone i could look up to..someone na good influence that could bring me back..the old angelica that my little sister is talkin about..i want to bring her again.
i just want to feel better again..i want to bring back the real me..if people ask if im ok or wat.. well probably my answer would be yes im good.. but deep inside my inner self.. i dont think so.. im ragged and covered with molds..how could i ever be back again ... my little sister is right.. im not me unlike before..that phrase really kept me thinkin because i cant believe my sister would say that to me.. na she said di naman daw ako ganito dati..it really confuses me.. na i asked her na anu ba ako dati na hindi ngyon.. and you wont believe kung ano ung mga sinabi nya that really shocked me..tama sya.. ang laki nga tlaga ng difference at grabe ung mga changes na iyon..i ask myself ganito ba tlga ung mga nagbago sa akin..well i think di ko na mababago ang mga nangyari at di ko maibabalik ung mga nawala sa akin..sobrang stupida ko at tanga.. but meron kayang isang tao na matatanggap pa ang aking pinagdadaanan ngayon..na kaya akong tanggapin kung ano nangyari sa akin...siguro masasabi ko na lng.. it just happen and i dont regret at all .. part din kasi ako ng mga nangyari.. natatakot na ako sa naging ako.. sa naging ako with this past few years.. well probably i think im really miserable when i became 19 up to now...di ko na talaga maisip.. i need counseling..

Black sheep.. oo fine black sheep na ako ng family nmin.. i really admit it.. before they've been proud of me way back hanggang mag 1st year college ako but nagsimula na lahat ng mga pangarap ko ay mabuwag.. how could i mend all of this.. my parents dont have trust on me anymore.. really scary.. seeing myself today really frighten me..how how

kung mababalik ko lamang ang lahat..can someone say to me what am i way back..para kahit pano unti unti kong maibalik ang dati...ung dati

OMG as in!!!

OMG as in!!!

OMG to the highest levels tlaga!!! waaaa i really dont know what to do.. someone propose ba ito?? kasi ganito un kagabi, jayson called me... wla lng nangangamusta since pauwi n din sila from venezuela and he said na he cant wait to see me on sept..@.@ waaa and then he miss me daw etc etc..
later kaninang umaaga he called me also to say na anu daw b ang sagot ko??waaa yes or no lng daw? waaa i didnt even hear kgabi na my sinabi sya n magic words saken..
well i just said na i have a bf already and he knows that and i dont want to hurt anyone and im happy na friends lng tlga kmi.. he said na he is fallin for me ek ek at kung anu anu pa.. and he will also respect what will be my decision.. cra kasi cuzn ko and he really pushes him to me.. nman my cuzn said na jayson loves me and he wanted to marry me?!? waaa
i have nothing to say since i know na di tlga pwede ung gusto nya mangyari.. nman o...he is looking forward to see me soon..
waaahay!!! why why why!!??
state of mind: really disturb!!!

Unfortunate day

Unfortunate day...:(



Ewan ko ba today.. lapitin ata ako ng kamalasan..puro bruises at pasa ang inabot ko..=( puro sugat mga kamay ko.. nagkapasa pa ako sa paa dahil nbagsakan ako ng CPU..buti n nga lang endi kuko e...hay nman eto pang mas malala ang dami kong pimples...nman o! :( sobrang tiring ang week na ito... i want to rest and buy a new something next week a book will do or magpafacial para gumanda.. hay i want something new to me.. i also want to have a new hair style?? i want blue highlights...hay so many things to wish but so many things to do din...i also have to prepare our thesis pa.. sa wakas ilang weeks na lng at matatapos n OJT ko...wheww!

Not so good yesterday

Not so good yesterday

Hay muntikan na naman ako mang away dito sa ofis. I really felt bad thats why i cry. Umuwi n lng ako after ko matapos ung task ko kahapon. Buti n lng pag uwi e my mama comfort me.. nakakamiss din ung mga advices nya pag may ganung situation. I never hesitate in telling her about what happen dito sa ofice. She just said that ganun lng talga sa office at marami ka pang ma-eencounter n mga ganyan since un ung work mo...Hay well so be it.. Some people tlaga akala biro lng kasi ang lhat... they don't see your effort kahit physically at mentally e pagod na pagod ka na..kung anu anu kasi pinagagwa e akala nman employee na ako dito ... hmmmp.. i'l never work here tlga.. i dont want to spend my entire career with this kind of people around me..NEVER

SUITORS

Okay, eto na nag uupdate na ako..hihihih
Ai sya.. its been a while na mag update ako ng gabi hehehe.. nman talaga di ko na alam gagawin ko.. nag OJT lng ako neto ah tas mdami na nangyayri sa kapaligiran.. nman including me.. as in could someone help me nman o.. T.T worried na ako.. kasi ganto un..

Ehem ehem.. my cuzn..#.# nman o!!!!! may pinakilalang stranger and 2 nights na niya ako bina bug as in BUG in my cell..at ako'y natatakot coz my cuzn keeps on pushing him for me and i think he is waiting for something.. T.T namn o!! grrr hay nalilito na ako cuz i know na he just nid a friend kasi nga mhirap tlga mgtrabaho sa barko at nakakalungkot dun at kakamove on nya lng sa ex nya from gen san.. after ng contract nya e he's going to visit me? to give mga pasalubong ng cuzn ko samin.. but i smell something fishy tlga dun..hay hay at eto pa he's spending much na sa kakatawag saken minsan after lunch at most of the time tuwing gabi.. i already seen his pic sa friendster and aun so so..basta naguguluhan ako sa kakatawag nya ng mdalas and im worried na wla ako mapgsabihan e..T.T!

Another one.. actually matagal na to.. i meet him during may NCO days his name..actually dalawa silang namba BUG din hehehehe.. wag nating isiwalat ang kanilang mga pangalan para di expose hahaha.. pangalanan naten ung isa na UP aun.. si UP we plan na mgbeach outing kaso di natuloy hahah..before he plans na magdate daw kami or wat knowing i have a BF ha! malakas ang loob nya tlaga at nkuha nya akong tawaging sweetie.. T.T nman o but recently di na sya nagt2xt..aun buti nman hehehe the other one pangalanan natin syang TM.. si TM aun kaka BUG lng nya recently and malakas din loob neto grbe kakaiba n talga mga tao ngayon.. knowing tlga na may BF ako ha as in BF.. niyaya nya ako n magdate daw kmi last thursday.. T.T nman o... confucious talaga ang drama ko tlga..!!!@#$@#%

at eto pa malupit... binansagan akong crush ng bayan ng BCT...!!! the hell talaga!!!
kasi i dont know wats his position in Sykes but i think mataas nga..this guy pangalanan naten syang J.Lo hahah John Patrick Lopez ata name nya.. he looks young for his position and i think he is very knowleadgeble talga.. actually ung incident nangyari sa elevator.. he said those guys inside said na 'pretty daw nung bagong IT ekek' and he keeps on teasing me.. kaya aun nalaman na ng mga boss ko dun at lhat sila inaasar na ako..T.T for me nakaka flatter un at times but for me i feel na they are just making fun or something na di na bago sa akin kaya di na ako naapektuhan.. hinahayaan ko sila kung dun sila lumigaya.. so wat!

lately din nakakareceive ako ng mga invitation na magcoffee daw kmi ekeke via net! di ba iba tlga nman o.. grbe tlga advancement nten ngayon sa technology.. ang lalakas ng mga fighting spirits nga mga tao..tsk tsk.. sori pero di ako gnun grrr!!! di nila alam di ako nagrereply sa mga gnun ahahahah mahirap na noh! unless kung si PIOLO un hahaha kidding!! :D

di ko lam kung fortunate ba ito or gift or wat...but for me ayoko na makilala as a pretty face lang.. never ko iniisip na maging ganun.. i only want is na makilala ako as having a good character, knowledgeble kahit pano, has enormous faith in God which lately di ko na ganong naeexercise, humble at may diskarte sa buhay....un ung mga gusto ko e..hehehe

title siguro netong blog ko SUITORS in ACTION!!! Horror to promise!

somewhere in the middle !!!

pa circle circol circul lng ang buhay

somewhere in the middle !!!
kasi bangag ms c'=

currently listening to dishwalla - somewhere in the middle
ive been harsh well thats me pabigla bigla ...i want to drink...
to change my atmosphere may mayayaya` ba ako dito ? mga friendships ko ba game b dito?or anyone na di ko pa naaya before or i want a night alone with myself..starring at the stars across a field of grasses or the city basta mataas na lugar na abot tanaw ung mga bagay bgay while drinking lite.. meron bng gnun stress sa practicum? tingin ko ako lang un.. i want a condo. studio type.. i must invest... i wanted to start at that point... makita improvements ko unti unti mapupuno ng mga gamit etc while providing and helping my family... i wanted to start on scratch.. simple na lng ang gusto ko ngyon after ko makagrad. to work.to help my little sis to grad too in college.to live,love,enjoy life while spending mah own cash..to share wat i have.and to die peacefully.no more little me or perhaps marriage..i think madami mgagalit but dito in the future but im sori..i have many fears..future.. so many twist kaya wag dapt unahan ang mga bgay bgay. im still young and capable. i must right what i did na mali this past few years..i must start right away..like now?! i'll drink my last liquor and savor all my pleasures except comp games cause this would be the last..ive been selfish for the past years and i must live my life nman for others para sila nman sumaya.. 2 nights ko ng nilalabanan ung isipan ko to set it right its really really super duper hirap coz u dont know where tlga to start.. i want all to be happy , at di lng ako dpat ung masaya.. i must be the last one to be happy from now onwards until i die thats for sure c; and i'l do it right now starting this night...i have to fight for it even my heart and mind breaks..carry lng!

..hopefully that would be the last time posting my extreme emotion to someone..i dnt know.

..i want someone to appreciate too what im hearing ryt now..

Bitches are witches.. and so are you!!!

Bitches are witches.. and so are you!!! -> para sau ito nagfe feeling!! potah

Putang ina tlga mga pangit sa paligid ko!!!!Grrrr!!! Sori but i have to. Ayoko sa lahat ng mga ganito eh!!!! mga pangit na physically ang lalakas pa ng loob!!! Bullshit tlga sa mga nag eencourage sa mga pangit na yan!!! Da hell mga un!!! Fyn fyn just rejoice and flaunt probably ngayon ka lang nasabihan ng gnun wow *applause* but dont you ever make fool to me again kasi di ko kau uurungan mga bullshit kau!!! kau na nga itong panget eh ang lalakas pa ng loob nyo..bravo tlga ako sa mga fighting spirit at kapal muks ng mga PI n yan!!!!

Ang BF/GF mo ba ay dapat bang...

1. Dapat ba maganda/gwapo?

..d nman...

2. Matalino?

..katamtaman..

3. Preferred Age?

..older/younger or same age like me

4. Preferred Height?

..mas matangkad saken...

5. How about sense of humor?

..oo kailangn..

6. How about piercings?

..ok lng din khit wla

7. Accepts u for who u are?

..of course..at mahal ako syempre

8. Mushy or no?

..tama lng..

9. Thin or Fat?

..ok n ung ktwan ni ian ko ... :)

11. Moreno or Chinito or Mestiso?

..moreno..

12. Long Hair or Short Hair?

..short hair..basta maayos tignan at d agaw E

13. Plastic or Metal?

..??

14. Smells good?

..yea ok n ung amoy ni ian ko

15. Smoker?

..big NO

16. Drinker?

..occasionally ..

17.boy-next-door type?

...

18. Musically inclined?

..khit my alam lng okie lng sken

19. Plays Guitar?

..khit hindi okie lng

20. Plays Piano?

..same as 19

21. Plays violin?

..same as 20

22. Sings very good?

..same as 21

23. Vain?

..wag..

24. With Glasses?

..oo.. i prefer..hahahah

25. With braces?

..khit wag na .. aus lng

26. Shy type?

.. d nman.. outgoing person like ian

27. From what school?

..khit san

28. Active or Passive?

..in terms of ??

29. Sporty?

..yea..basketball will do..

30. Singer or dancer?

..khit endi..

31.Suplado?

..d dapt

32. Hiphop?

..okie lng

33. Piercing?

..ntanung n ata 2

35. Torpe?

..d dapt..

36. Mr count-my-ex-till-u-drop?

..endi

37. Dimples?

..okie lng khit wala

38. Bookworm?

..same as 37

39. Mr. Love letter?

..hmm oo sana

40. May goatee?

..wg n lng

41. Flirt?

..sapak gusto mo?

42. Poem writer?

..i prefer sana..

43. Serious?

..my times cguro ..

44. Galante?

..oo

45. Campus crush?

..big NO

45. Painter?

..okie lng khit hindi

46. Religious?

..yea hopefully

47. Alaskador?

..medyo lng..

48. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

..no sa lht

49. Speaks 20 languages?

..ian kaya mo?

50. Loyal o faithful?

..both..khit ako wicked

..NOTE: i've been thinkin of someone will answering this survey... hahaha hula ka n lng... hubby ko..

i was tagged..

i was tagged..

Post the rules:
*each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
*bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
*at the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
*don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

1. one thing about me is that, i love sweets..and im not techy person..

2.second, hmm i want ny stuff to be organize..khit d halata...

3.i enjoy hanging out w/ friends or any occasion na..

4.mahilig akong mag try ng something exciting...

5.i enjoy swimmin alot...

6.eto ngayn ko lng nalaman.. delayed me magreply .. it depends kung urgent and impt un

7.i can socialize to any type of persons... ^.^

8.i have no beauty secret...o yan ha...ola!@!

9.i can adapt to any situation...adjust perhaps is the ryt term...

10.my wildest dream is to tour and travel good places together with my parents and siblings..and also ian<-asawa ko na un BONUS 11.i want 4 babies..bhala n kung pano khit magic yan basta 4 period... ...NOTE" i want to tag the following persons....lhat ng makakabasa neto n may blog...!!! na-tag kasi ako ni lex...hekhek fyn ilist daw ung mga tao...hmm.. aubri, deck, jacob, ja,em, jolenz, nel, steph, andrea, istine, olivia, nica,regz, robert, basta lhat ng mga my blog...ayt... :D

I just finish reading it...

I just finish reading it...by the river piedra, i sat down and wept

--> actually last week ko pa ito tapos basahin..kc pinapasauli n saken but still it is very worthwhile reading one of paulo coelho's books...medyo i find it boring kc hinaluan ng religion knitty gritty...but as a whole ayos sya... here posted are the lines that interests me while reading...la lang just again to remind myself...it is a story about pilar and his childhood friend who became a spiritual leader.. they both love each other way back then and they both have to follow their calling..e calling nung guy na maging spiritual warrior that cures pips and at the same time she still love pilar.. nagkaroon ng conflict sa love nya between kay God at kay pilar...but in the end he chooses pilar and still continue their calling together...

---> next feature sana ung fifth mountain...ian ung book peram!!!!!!!!!!
---> pending p ung the guardian n book by nicholas sparks...
---> soon to be read: solstice ba un?? not sure sa title but it is about vampires ata..T.T heheh update it soon
---> in lieu sa post ko before... well im ok... check up n lng and sana negative ung findings..di ba ian?!!!
---> i just recently sign off as an avp-socio civic in lscs...fyi 2 terms pa me....ojt dis term and ictproj nxt nxt term..honestly i really want to graduate na as in kaso nga..its not time pa...hay hay hay...i would like to quote this quote that i've got sa cp ko...

"sometimes, you juz cant hav wat u want wen u want it...but dat dsnt mean u can never hv it, everything takes place at d ryt tym... its not NO, its just NOT NOW!!"--ho ayan ...cge im holding to this...

---> cc dau ngayn!!! hopefullly maganda ung mga grades kow!!!...

some people always have to be doing battle with someone, sometimes even with their own lives. So they begin to create a kind of play in their head, and they write the script based on their frustrations.
the worst part is that they cannot present the play by themselves.. so they begin to invite other actors to join in.

Wandering.. I wished I were there with someone who could bring peace to my heart - someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that I would lose him the next day. with that assurance, the time would pass more slowly. we could be silent for a while because we'd know we had the rest of our lives together for conversation. i wouldn't have to worry about serious matters, about difficult decisions and hard words.

I realized that i had known nothing of love before. When i saw him at the conference and accepted his invitation, i'd thought that i, as a mature woman, would be able to control the heart of the girl who had been looking for so long for her prince. then he had spoken about the child in all of us - and i'd heard again the voice of the child i had been, of the princess who was fearful of loving and losing..

I had tried to ignore my heart's voice, but it had grown louder and louder, and the Other had become desperate. In the furthest corner of my soul, my true self still existed, and I still believed in my dreams. Before the Other could say a word, I had accepted the ride with him and take the risks involved.

Love had found me, despite the barricade that the Other had built across a quiet street in Zaragosa, a barricade of preconceived ideas, stubborn opinions, and textbooks.

And like a child, i believed that our prayers would be answered..

True love was above all that and that it would be better to die than to fail to love....

I discovered that i too was capable of loving. Even if loving meant leaving, or solitude, or sorrow, love was worth every penny of its price.

Love doesn't ask many questions, because if we stop to think we become fearful....thats why you don't ask - you act..you have to take risks..

Meet ian....

Meet ian....

i just want to post this (assignment niya..)so for me to be reminded of him always...hahahhah...

Autobiography:

Ako’y ipinanganak sa isang masaya at maaraw na Marso noong Ika labing apat ng nasabing buwan. Ako ay ipinanganak sa Cavite, at kasalaukuyang nakatira sa Paranaque. Nag-aaral ako ngayon ng export management sa De la Salle College of Saint Benilde. Nakatira ako sa bahay kasama ang aking tatay, at dalawang kapatid. Nung ako ay ipinanganak, tuwang tuwa ang lola ko, ako kasi ang una niyang apo. Ang lola ko ay napakalambing na tao at laging nilulutuan ako ng mga masasarap na putahe. Hanggang ngayon ay hinahanap hanap ko siya kahit yumao na.

Sino ako sa Buhay

Ang pangalan ko ay si Ian Marlowe D. Novido, iyan ang pangalang ibinasbas sa akin ng mga magulang ko. Nagsimula ako mag-aral noong ako’y apat na taong gulang pa lamang sa Think and Try kindergarten. Nanalo ako ng premyo sa pagiging magaling sa pagdrawing. Nagtapos ako sa Don Bosco Makati Technical Institute nung high skul at elementarya. Nanalo ako ng conduct award at academic and technical excellence sa loob ng aking baiting sa paaralan. Lagi akong nasa honor list ng aking mga baiting hanggang nagkaroon ako ng problema sa pamilya nung 3^rd year high skul ako. Ako ay kasalakuyang 1^st year transferee student sa DLS-CSB. Plano kong tapusin ang aking pag-aaral at magtrabaho pagkagradweyt. Plano ko ring kumuha ng Masters degree sa Business Administration sa hinaharap.

Ano ang Buhay para sa Akin

Ang buhay para sa akin ay ang aking mga pamilya at kaibigan particular ang aking kasintahang si Angelica. Ito rin ay ang mga problema at pagsubok na kailangan tahakin upang umasenso sa buhay. Ako ay sa kasalukuyang ay nasa masayang bahagi ng buhay. Katulad ng lahat ng mga estudyante sa kolehiyo, nagsisikap akong pumasa at makakuha ng matataas na marka sa kurso ko. May mga lubak sa daanan na dapat lampas an at iyon ang aking “motivation”. Meron akong mga kaibigan na kahit di ko na nakikita ay sumsuporta pa rin sa akin. Tulad ng pag mayroon akong kabiguan sa araw, meron akong makakausap tungkol dito. Pinapalipas ko ang oras sa paaralan pagkatapos ng mga klase ko sa pamamagitan ng pagidlip sa mga bakanteng upuan at pagtapos ng mga takdang-aralin. Pinipilit kong baguhin ang buhay ko para na rin sa aking mga kapamilya at sa sarili ko. Iniisip ko na ang buhay ng lahat ng tao ay may patutunguhan, kailangan ko nga lang gumalaw upang may kalalabasan ang aking pinaghirapan.

Ang Kalagayan ko sa Hinaharap

Sampung taon mula ngayon, ako ay naninirahan pa rin sa Pilipinas ngunit may mga negosyo or trabaho sa ibang bansa. Magiging matagumpay akong may-ari ng isang negosyo at nagbibigay trabaho sa mahigit kumulang 200 katao. Mabubuhay ako ng komportable sa kasalukuyan kong sitwasyon sapagkat asawa ko na si Angelica. Magtutulungan kami sa anomang problema at magkakaroon kami ng isang anak na nagngangalang Kyle. Isang henyo sa musika at siyensiya si Kyle at tinuturuang maging magaling na basketbolista kahit 3 taong gulang pa lamang siya. Si Anjhe ay mabait at magandang babae, na nakakadala at nagbibigay buhay sa aking pakiramdam. Kami ay habang buhay na magkakasama hanggang sa kami ay tinubuan na ng putting buhok.

Konklusyon

Gaya ng sinabi ko sa simula, ako ay ipinanganak sa Pilipinas at di pa nakakatapak sa ibang bansa. Gusto kong libutin ang mundo kasama ang mahal ko ngunit pansamantalang nag-aaral pa kami. Sana’y nasayahan kayo sa pagbasa ng aking maikling talambuhay tulad ng pagsulat nito sa mga babasa nito. Gawin niyong pundasyon ang inyong mga karanasan, humanap ng pangarap at tuparin. Habang may buhay, may pag-asa pa.

Ang Tangi kong Inspirasyon

Sampung buwan na kami magkatuwang, magkasalo sa aming gawain at pangangailangan. Isa siyang tunay na anghel, hulog ng langit. Nagpapasalamat ako na dumating siya sa buhay ko. Akala ko nga dati bago siya dumating ay ang mga anghel ay makikita lamang sa langit. Nagkamali ako, nandito siya, ang sarili kong Anghel na nagngangalang Angelica. Simula’t simula nung nagging girl friend ko siya ay nabago na niya ng tuluyan ang buhay ko. Ang Ian dati ay iba na sa Ian ngayon. Malaki ang naitulong niya sa buhay ko. Binago niya ang aking pananaw sa buhay. Ang paraan ng pamamalakad ko sa sarili kong buhay pati na rin ang pakikitungo ko sa ibang tao. Best friend ko siya, Masaya ako at nanatiling lubus-lubusang maligaya. Naghahanap na lamang ako ng paraan kung paano ko masusuklian ang mga ginawa niya para sa akin. Mahal ko siya, sobra pa sa sarili ko. Sana habang buhay na kami magkasama. Dahil mas gugustuhin ko na may anghel sa tabi ko at nagbabantay sa akin kahit na medyo makasarili ako sa ibang tao dahil sa pinagdaramot ko siya. Mahal na mahal ko talaga siya.

is it for real??

is it for real??

one thing i thought when i woke up this morning...is it really happening to me? waaa grbe na ito!!! im sick!!! i wana cry.. i want them to know that im sick but hell not coz they'll be angry for the cause/reason of it... is it really for real..eto n b ung mga signs n were not meant for each other?? is it? i really love ian so much..and God knows that.. but eto n b tlga ung intruder n ta2pos ng lhat sa amin... im really bothered... i wanna cry and tell someone about the things going in my mind and tell what really my condition is..but heaven gracious no....every time i think of it and other related things with it... i just feel worried, sad, and hopeless.. i never regret the things that happened to me but if this is really the prize for it... i have to accept and live life...as the way it is...updated!!


//d,j,j,i,a

long time no update...

long time no update...

thats ryt!!...hay just visit my multiply site if u want...ryt now im addict in pc games as in...T.T
hmmm 3rd term is about to end and in a matter of weeks waaa mag-O2jt n ako and i'll be doin or we'll be doin r project!!! i hav to learn .net in a short span of time waaa how is dat???!!...i hav to do what im suppose to do thats mah motto>.<...hopefully guys ur doin good also...lets continue to reflect even if its not holy week...dats for now...hopefully i could update it more often...sayounara!!

Oh come on!!

Oh come on!!

Grabe ha!! this past few days e.. warrr kami ni ian!!-.-as in awy tas bati... haay sobrang liit lang nman nung mga pinag aawayan nmin...ai nku tlga!!! get lost mga bwsit na intruders sa friendster ko at nya okie!! pakelam b ha!!!;p neweiz hope na we could spend time each other na d kmi nag aaway...-.- ;p

----> midterms ngyn kaya bz bzhan ayt!!! babush!!!
----> news: fyi magpre2sent ako at ang vp nmin for the how 2008... ibang level tlga, nominated kasi mga project nmin and hopefully it'll turn out just fine/okie... bigatin din mga kalaban nmin..hooh!! wish us luck!!!


---> hope we all pass our midterms!!! onti n lng guys!!! we could do it!!!=D
---> Godbless!!!tc!

Happy V-day!!1

Va-len-tines..ss

First and foremost happy Valentines day 2 all my friendz!!!

Basically, aun lng ung post ko!!!






Mag-enjoy kau sa mga jowaers nyo..or if wala with family and friends n lng!!! hehehe peace spread the love..!!! mwahh =D

ange!!! tandaan mo to!

waaah...ange!!! tandaan mo to!

ai nman talaga o kanina good mood ako..ngayon boraot na!!tf i just dnt know basta yoko and indi ko feel and mga pinag iicp ko ngayn.. i have to achieve my goal this week.. maiinis tlga ako pag di ko na attain un...T.T

->una wag malate this week
->pangalawa wag maging magastos (as much as possible talaga)
->pangatlo maging pa good girl na !!@.@ icontrol ang dapat icontrol
->pang apat careerin and acads
->panlima makapag mass 2 times or 3 times this week...
->pang anim makapag swim para magtone nman khit unti katawan ko

->major accomplishment ko would be mabili ung pinag iipunan ko this week!!! actually kakikayan lang un hahahaha pero sasaya na ako pag naaccomplish ko un bec that means im in control ng mga bagay bagay.. really ... i dont want to slip away the chances na maaring mangyari..as long as i could handle and control things up nasa civilizasyon pa ako... meaning little by little e may pa22nguhan nman ung buhay ko.. i mean may direction ba.. grabe i wanted to act and be mature mag icp coz ang panget nman pag indi...i wanted to think mature Un uN! to simplify just wanna use my brain sa mga bagay bagay n may sense ba!! kaboraot tlga pag di..nabobobo kasi ako..nakakahawa..yikes!!!

--? sori for this post napeste lng...*.* hay back to doin acad stuff again..babushh!!


......basta azarness talaga pag di un natupad!!!amp!

How to start updates like this........

How to start updates like this........

-> okie eto na mag uupdate na ako but i dunno where to start..to begin na lang i'll just narrate briefly what had happened to me last term, during the xmas vacation and up to this very day...

-> First stop, my acads were doin fine but not my gpa last term.. but thank God i was enrolled..so many blessings that come my way that i have to thank and thank...especially people that helped me up with this...dont know how to repay them but i'll make sure that they're not gonna regret even if they did but we just dont know what will happend in the future..i really hope it will turn out to be what i deserve..neweiz i dont want to assume much regarding with this i'll just do what im supposed to do...skip

-> Next stop what did i do last xmas vacation??... oh well, i work. Yes im sure with this again. Yah again i averted my self to relax and just be with my loved ones that holiday season but again i didnt feel i was alone becoz their so many reason not to be sad about that hahaha... neweiz im glad because during that 24 days stay in NCO ive meet people with nice and not so nice identities..hahahah basta they've been part of my life na.. some made my stay their worthwhile but not the work itself because you know being a call center agent is a stressful work..you have to comply with this and with that...jahe!!! basta i enjoy the company of my co-workers but not the work or field itself ok...anu pa ba.

-> love life ??? anyone!!?? hahaha i dont know ian and I were going steady coz we've been together for a year or so.. I love him so so so much and i believe he loves me too but there are times na u know masusubukan tlga ung trust nya and trust ko sa kanya.. i just believe and take what he says.. esp if its all about in our relationship.. i dont regret na pinili ko sya for once ever hanggang ngyon kahit na maraming intruders and ian knows about them..yikes... i dont want to hide or do something that i'll regret in the future.. i just want to be still and i hope in time na we could be really together.. i hope that we could withstand all.. hayzzz long long way pa nga..d nman ako nagmamadali.. were enjoying each others company as of now... im happy and secure everytime im with him coz i know he accepted me for who i am and i also do the same for him..basta mahal ko lang talaga sya without any pretentions period..

->boys boys boys *.*... i just dont want to flaunt or make yabang but im not a chickgirl..if theirs a term for that.. i dont want to be labeled as makapal ang mukha or yabang or feeling coz im not that type.. but ever since my hs friends know that im not turning down or hindering anyone who gets should i say attracted na lang to me..cause you know y?? i just dont what for that person to feel that he/she is rejected by someone.. un lang i know i commited with someone and i perhaps he felt selos with them but still he knw it already i just dont want to talk about that much... masayahin na sumpungin lang ako but im not bad and im dont intend to hurt anyone.. me na lng..d bale na lang ako mahurt that feel guilty about it..ryt ryt hahah...o tama na

->Family aun kaboom nanaman kailangn ko magpagood shot all over again with may papaita dearest.. as in bitter ever sa akin e.. hayz basta message ko sa mga?! magiging anak ko in the future dont be hard headed like me..hahahah..

-> Friends lotsa of them.. i dont think nagkukulang me dun but definitely im with them anyway and they know it.. just call or text me and i'll be there..fyn gullible na nga ako nabiktima na ako ni jeric!!! at ni jonnel sa text.. mga wlanya kau.!!! argghh hahaha

-> Anu pa ba?? ya i almost forgot ung reunion thingy namin nung mga gs batchmates ko sa sacre.. hahah as in evolution to the max ang drama ng mga tao dun.. tameme nga lang ako sa iba na di ko gnung ka close.. malaro lang kasi ako na bata nung gs and i do excell but not that much,.. i just enjoy being a kid back then kaya no string attached or any emotions when we've meet..unlike hs.. ung sa iba like lyka, ozelle, or kristine via phone.. medyo closey closey lang kmi unlike tlga ung iba as in nastar struck lang at na amaze lang ako nung nyt na un hahaha.. i hope to have a reunion again with them!!! magdadala na ako ng yearbook un ang solution ko ...hahah i dont even know their names e but i do recognize some of their face!!! hahah lol

->anu pa nga ba?? party, gimmick gimmick lang tska anu pa.. kainan..food..tulog..text..hahah kulitan asaran anu p ba mga nagawa ko.. aun i havent seen my relatives last reunion.. sad kasi less ung pabuya... ahhaha kidding i know im big enough for that hahaha but still i havent made chika chika with my cuzn'z etc etc.. neweiz i havent change nman e.. im still the sweet reserve bright obedient angeline they know heheheh.. fyn partially lng!!! anu pa ba...

-> ya i need to fill or feed my spirit with gospel... feeling ko un ung task ko na need ko mafulfill para macomplete me hayz... i must tlga to be obedient na.. neweiz im getting tired and mind you mahirap magflash back sa mga nangyari sa akin in the details.. neweiz i wanted to talk all the people that made my life colorful at times and tough at times too... and im thanking God for all the blessings tlga..all the glory to him...signing off for now...
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